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Wednesday, June 5th, 2013
2:01 pm - Just saying Hi
mosaulter Just joined and thought I'd say hi. I've had SP episodes since I was a child; I'm in my 30's now. I can go through long periods without having any, and then BAM! back to back for several months. I haven't had one in about a year but remain interested in what other people experience. In some of the SP states, I have flown out of my body; felt a "presence" (hallucinated or whatever) sit down beside me; been "hugged" by this presence (without being able to move); heard noises and sometimes laughter; can sometimes tell if the "presence" is good/bad/indifferent and whether male/female; saw bubbles and swirls in different hues; can tell you what was playing on the television (if I happen to have one when the tele is on); and the list goes on.

Glad to find kindred souls.

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Sunday, August 8th, 2010
5:22 pm


Just a newbie to this commuity popping by to say hi! It's really nice to find a community of people who know what SP is, and more importantly, actually understand what it's like. As supportive as my friends/family are when I babble about an episode, it just not the same when they can't relate to it.

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Also, I was wondering; where are some non-bed places you guys have had episodes?

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Friday, December 18th, 2009
12:58 am

New to the community and just wanted to say hi!

I've been suffering from sleep paralyses since age 10 (I'm 20 now... so 10 years of horror). I don't remember ever having a mild episode. They've always been pretty terrifying. I know people talk about hallucinations during sleep paralyses, but I don't know if something that feels SO REAL could be considered hallucinations, at least not in my book. I've never had an episode of sleep paralyses that didn't feature a "hallucination" so needless to say, it gets pretty terrifying.

Anyway, I'm rambling, but I guess what I'm trying to get at is: I'm so glad to have found a community full of people who suffer the same problem as me, especially since no one I know has ever experienced it!

<3Happy holidays!

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Sunday, November 22nd, 2009
11:49 am

Last night I had a rather messed up sleep paralysis episode. First, I was "awoken" by noises on the room. A strange grumbling noise and then the sound of rustled plastic bags; which there are a few on the room, so that made me get really freaked out. Then I opened my eyes without thinking of the consequences. I couldn't see any definite figure, or figures, but it looked as if a wave of things were quickly rolling or crawling from the end and side if the bed up my leg and gowards my head. I was able to snap out of it then. I got the ability to move and, unfortunately, use my voice again. If you can imagine a series of blood curdling screams accompanied by panicked crying, that is the sound that came out of my mouth and woke everyone in the apartment, and probably the neighbors, up. Of course, I scared the living daylights out of my husband. I think I remember him giving out a small scream out of shock as well. We slept the Rest of the Night with the lights on, which made for light non-energizing sleep. It is a bit after 11 in the morning now. The husband just got out of bed before I started writing this. I think he is rather angry with me.
Why won't God make this stop? I pray every night to sleep properly. I ask every night to keep me safe and not allow me to have SP. I have tried every prayer in the book. Nothing makes it go away and because of me my husband hasn't slept properly in months because he is afraid I will scream or because I do scream or yell at things to go away. What should I do?

X-posted in my lj

current mood: tired

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Saturday, October 17th, 2009
12:38 pm - o_O

x-posted from my lj

I am not sure if I mentioned before, but the other day I got a voice mail from my father where he mentioned my "sleeping problem" (sleep paralysis) and that he has woken up scared and not able to move either. He also said, that the next time we talk, he would explain to me what it is. This made me rather curious and I had been eagerly awaiting his next phone call.

Yesterday, he called and you will never believe what he said.
He told me, that when you wake up unable to move and/or you feel like there is pressure on your body, it means that your soul is coming back. He said, that sometimes at night when we sleep, your soul leaves your body to perhaps visit someone or party with your friends souls who knows where. Sometimes, when it comes back, it wakes you up and as it re-enters you body, you cannot move. >_<

I am very open-minded about lots of things, but that totally threw me for a loop. I think it threw me off even more because this was coming from my dad.

I asked him why I would see these people and things in my room if it was just my soul coming back into my body. He said, that is something else having to do with some dark and evil fifth dream dimension of some kind and that I should pray that I don't go there anymore and that my soul doesn't wake me up when it re-enters my body at night.

Wow. Just...wow.

I told him that that was really interesting, but I know that I suffer from Sleep Paralysis with Hypnagogic Hallucinations and that there are many people who experience the same thing.

His reaction to that, "Oh..."

current mood: hungry

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Tuesday, October 13th, 2009
1:29 pm - Intro.

Hello everyone!

Just joined the group yesterday and thought that I would introduce myself.
I have suffered from SP for pretty much as long as I can remember. Until recently, I actually thought that I was some kind of magnet for strange and evil spirits of some kind >_< but then, thank goodness, I happened upon an article about sleep paralysis. This led me to research more on the subject and conclude that this is what I have been suffering from for soooo long. And this whole time I thought I was crazy. What a relief!!
Since I realized that I suffer from SP, I have somehow been able to know when I am having an episode. I think this has kept me from getting strangled and attacked at night for the past week or so, thought I still do start to see things whilst paralyzed. Due to this awareness, I actually think that my episodes are starting to last longer. As if I know that I am in this strange state of mind and I just lay there and observe how awkward it feels not to be able to move, feeling as if I were as heavy as a boulder or some such thing. Does anyone else experience this?

Also, thought it really hasn't done anything for me at this point other than make me light headed, over-tired and nauseous, my doctor rx'ed me risperidon sandoz which is supposed to make the scary entities and such go away and help me sleep. Like I said before, since I have been aware of SP I haven't had any terrifying experiences at night yet, not sure if the medication has anything to do with it or not, but on the meds I still experience SP, usually a couple of times a night.

Has anyone else used this risperidon sandoz? If so, did it actually help you? Or am I dealing with all of these nasty side-effects for nothing? 

current mood: bored

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Tuesday, August 11th, 2009
12:19 am

So glad I found this community.
I have sleep paralyisis almost every night, and it's absolutely terrifying.
I fall asleep and the next thing I know I am conscience that I am in my bed and aware that I am awake but my body is frozen, and I can't open my eyes. I usually try to scream too.
THE WORST PART is when I sense and extremely evil horrifying presence and it's standing over my bed, or coming closer to me. THEN I actually feel hands grabbing me, or choking me, or covering my face with my blankets... or I feel people sit on me, or sit next to me. I hear strange scary noises too.. and I do everything in my power to wake myself up! I've even had some one right in my face blowing on me. WEIRD, I know...
And everytime I have sleep paralysis, I am deathly afraid to fall back asleep.
I'm just wondering if anyone else ever gets this?

current mood: exhausted

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Wednesday, April 29th, 2009
11:00 pm

 i have has SP off and on since i was about 5 or 6.  that's the earliest i remember having it.  i remember waking up n freaking out bc i couldn't move at all and i felt weird fuzzyness all over.. like a force field surrounding me keeping me from moving.  kinda like when u sit on ur foot n it falls asleep n goes numb n feels fuzzy-like... but all over my body.  really freaked me out.  n i remember finally snapping out of it and running to my parent's room to tell them what happened n they said it was a bad dream or something n i grabbed a blanket n slept on the floor next to their bed n it happened again and i tried to scream to wake them up but i couldn't scream.. nothing would come out.  scary stuff.  anyways.. its been happening all the time lately.  my bf has seen me like that.  sometime when it's first starting i can talk, so i would tell him.. n he once put an ice cube on my tummy and i couldn't feel a thing.  it just sat there n melted n i couldn't even feel it.  sooo crazy.  the other night i had just woken up from a dream and was kinda wtf about it and then everything goes blacker, but i can still see my room thru the darkness and i'm still awake n thinking n everything.. but it's like i'm flying thru space n stars n stuff, but my room is still there....... and i'm freaking out n flailing my arms around (not for real bc i'm paralyzed, but i am doing it... and then i realize i'm in the sleep paralysis thing and so i try to open my eyes (even tho they are actually really open, but i can't wake up.. so use my hands to open my eyes and slowly my room becomes clearer n i can move my arms to totally snap back into reality.  then i drify off into SP again with the same darkness floating thing and this time i am calmer and try to kinda swim... and it works.  i was swimming thru space.  it was nuts.  then i pull my eyes open to wake up again.  and i know it's not a dream bc when the background comes clearer i can still feel that same kinda fuzzy numbness.  and now i'm really starting to read up on this whole SP thing... they say that it's actually the best time for out of body experiences.  and last night i started getting fuzzy again.. and the darkness with my room in the background again... so this time i tried to sit up (bc i read ur supposed to try to sit up to get out of ur body) and it worked.. and i floated up towards the ceiling so i tried to swim to my door.. and i got to it and tried to swim thru it, but i couldn't and it kinda snapped my back into my body n i "awoke" with the same fuzzyness that i had to shake off.  supposedly many ppl see hallucinations of ppl or lil devils n bad stuff, so i'm really scared of that.  but we'll see what happens.

anyone had any similar experiences??

current mood: bouncy

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Saturday, October 4th, 2008
12:56 pm - Alien encounter............

NOTE: I have DIAGNOSED sleep paralysis

Last night I couldn't sleep until I took a Klonopin (which I hate wasting at bedtime).... I was laying in bed, day-dreaming and i saw a beautiful house.... It was my dream house... I suddenly floated away from my body and toward my dream house... It was beautiful and I couldn't stop talking to myself about how lovely it was... I saw my infant son in the backyard... He was a teenager.... I floated inside of the house and saw a beautiful Christmas tree. It had clear.. see-through... bulbs of all colors, the sun shined through them and made a rainbow on the wall... I was in awe of what a beautiful house that ?I? had.... then suddenly I PANICKED...... I looked at the table...

Chad and Becky were eating at the table... I freaked out... panicked hardcore... I felt AWAKE 100%...... I said to myself, "I'm dead." "I ODed and I'm dead." then I saw realized that I was in a coffin..... in front ofthe dinner table and they were eating and talking and didn't notice me and that I was dead...... I had SLEEP PARALYSIS at that point and I realized that I needed to wake up... I moved.. Thought I moved.. I Tried to move my hand up to my mouth....

I tried, again, to move but then I barely opened an eye and I saw the "dream" still in the room, but could see a poster on my wall "in real life"... I panicked...
I heard a BUZZING/train/weirdass sound coming from the right of me and so I tried to move toward the sound to look at it in my room.... but I couldn't.. I looked up and then that dream disappeared and I was back in my room... AWAKE, but couldn't move AGAIN..... and there was a stereo-typical ALIEN- looking being standing beside me... It reached down for me... It had the weird big eyes and it was grey-ish black... I then saw MANY MANY MANY more figures ... dark, scary figures of the same type, surrounding me..... I freaked out... I thought that I was dead... but I knew at the same time that I had astrally projected before and that i just needed to get out of that when plane (hypnagogic state) of existance and so I said A PRAYER AS LOUD AS I COULD.... Something to the effect of, "IF I'm dying then God just take me with YOU to the good place,....... if I'm going to live then deliver me back to my normal world." At that moment in time I JOLTED UP and was sitting up in bed..... trembling.... IT WAS THE SCARIEST SLEEP-PARALYSIS/ASTRAL experience I have ever had... I was TERRIFIED.....

For the rest of the night- EVERY TIME I tried to go to bed I would hear that buzzing in my head and twitch myself awake before anything could get me......

"As for the aliens, from what I know about the "greys" which are the ones most typically seen and described by people, they do sometimes study humans, as well as animals. Most of my study has been with Pleaidians which look very much like humans and are 5th dimension. The only info that I've channeled about the greys was very early on. Basically, they have bred emotion out of their race and are interested in humans because we still experience all emotions. It's why some have said they breed half human half greys on their spaceships. I told them that they are welcome to observe me but they can never interact with me. This was all done in a channeling session at an outdoor rave- my first and only one of a few times I ever channeled. Interestingly, my daughter who is 5 now recently told me about a dream where they came and talked to her and she said they were kinda scary.

As I told her, I will say to you as well. Tell them you do not want them to interact with you. They may observe you from afar, but never in person. You can also ask the Pleaidians to watch over you. I still see their ships out any evening that I'm out walking late at night. You can surround yourself with a white or golden light each night when you go to sleep which will help as well."
- My expert friend, Colleen~

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Thursday, October 2nd, 2008
2:54 pm - helping a Christian SP sufferer...?

I'm a long-time SP sufferer myself and have posted here before... I haven't had any serious episodes in a long time though.

My boyfriend, however, started experiencing SP with hallucinations lately. He told me that as a child he would experience it and think that evil spirits were coming to try and mess with him. I guess the hallucinations went away but he still would have SP or bad dreams quite often, and just recently he started hallucinating as well.

Here is the thing: my boyfriend was raised in a very Christian environment, he's very devout and no matter what I tell him about sleep paralysis he believes that it's evil spirits trying to bring him down. I'm not going to try and change his opinion on this anymore because I think it's his right to believe what he wants, but it hurts me to see him so helpless and wondering what he did wrong to bring this onto him. He's going through a lot of big changes in life right now ( so I know it's probably stress-related and also the fact that he's been sleeping whack hours lately), and I think there's a lot going on spiritually that he's not telling me about which he's probably linking the SP to.

I feel really helpless when he calls me telling me about the episodes. They don't seem to last very long (he said around 15 seconds) so even the advice I can give him about how to break out of the lock doesn't seem very useful. And because I can't relate to his faith, I feel I can't really commiserate....

if anyone has any advice on how I could deal with this better, I would *really* appreciate it! Thank you so much :)

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Tuesday, September 30th, 2008
11:57 pm - More Sleep Paralysis Imagery


Dont know what that is that they are selling there on their site. But a decent video nonetheless

more vids

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Sunday, September 21st, 2008
10:12 pm

I never thought to look for a community for people who suffer from SP but I'm glad I looked because none of my friends or family can fully understand so it's hard when I need support.

I have been suffering from SP for 7 years now. I would say I'm a chronic sufferer although I have some dry periods..maybe 2 months inbetween. When I do have the few months of bad SP it usually means about 20 times (sometimes in a row) even if I'm having a simple cat nap.
I'm pretty sure I have some kind of sleep disorder (that started before the SP)but my GP always brushes it off but at my last visit I convinced him that I wanted to see a specialist, so let's see what comes of that.

The first time it ever happened was the night my father died. I was staying at my friends house and then I 'woke up' and could sense a female presence next to me, this was also the only ever time that I did not panic during an episode. The presence then put their hand on my neck and as soon as it touched me I woke up and the phone was ringing..it was my mother calling to tell me that my dad had passed. I am not a religious person but I thought that was pretty weird. I started having more episodes after this but always got the panic feeling. Like most I had no idea what was going on so I turned to the internet. I found out about SP but also about people experiencing evil beings in the room..devils sitting on the chest ect. I have never ever seen anything or felt anything evil when my SP happens so reading this terrified me. I used to try to keep myself awake at night by drinking a ton of coffee haha.

When it happens it sometimes begins with a nightmare, sometimes not. I 'wake up' and my eyes are open, I always see my room how it would look at night, with no strange creatures in it, (thank god!) I have read about astral projecting while having an episode and have always wanted to try but whenever it comes to it I ALWAYS panic and try to shake myself out of it (probably because I am nervous about seeing anything scary). I've gotten so used to the SP that I have even started screaming (I can hear and feel myself screaming) to the person next to me to get their attention. I'm pretty proud of myself though because recently I've managed to change my breathing to get the person to notice enough to wake me up. I also can feel myself shaking..so I can kind of break the bond right? I should be able to try some astral projecting because there seems to be more movement each time.

Also maybe 5-ish times I've experienced (whilst being alone in the house) that I hear my mother/boyfriend (depending on who's house I'm in) coming in through the front door and I might possibly have had conversations with them..or they were just talking to me, I can't quite remember.

So that's my story :D I'm looking foreward to being a part of this community
ps. Any tips to to overcome the panic sensation would be greatly appreciated!

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Monday, September 15th, 2008
10:08 pm - last night's account of Sleep Paralysis & dream

*It's almost like ghosts broke loose from somewhere last night.. or something..hehe [including a musician of sorts..]*

Last night I felt an approaching sleep paralysis.. the vibrational sounds, the feeling as if hands were pulling on my feet to get me off the bed.. and I tried to shake it off, but was too late since I couldn't move a muscle. I thought then maybe if I try to astrally project..[to escape this experience I hate so much].. So I managed to force my astral-self into a sitting position, but I found it difficult to fully separate. After that I must have blocked out because the next thing I knew I was in a dream..

*The Dream:
I found myself viewing the most beautiful scene in Jamaica.. others were with me as well. We were in a fast-driving bus, I had to hang on tightly each time they make a turn. The bus stopped, we came off and stood in the street for awhile, then looked for a cab to take us to another part of the island. Then something strange happened..

*I saw myself going in the cab, also my aunt, and a cousin. But at the same time, I realized, I was standing on the side-walk with my cousin. Confused, I asked my cousin, "can you tell me, who just went in that cab?".. she said, "We did.. plus aunt H.". Then I looked towards the dark street ahead, and knew it was a dangerous street to be walking on so late at night.

I turned to my cousin and said, "So we're both sitting in the cab, yet standing on the street at the same time.., Do you know what that means?.. The part of us that are in the cab, are safely on the way already.. which means we can walk on this dangerous street, and not have to worry about being harmed.. because this is our 'astral bodies'.. So let's go..". - That's what I explained to my cousin, as I placed my arm over her shoulder and we began to walk on the most dangerous streets in Jamaica.

*So we're walking and feeling confident. Nothing or no one can harm us.
Then up ahead I saw the men. I knew. [because in real life i've come in this kind of situation before.. these men are criminals]. It made no sense to turn and run, because it's too far a distance, and they will catch us anyway. So I whispered to my cousin, "here goes".

*As we came closer to these men, I noticed they were ready to pounce.. but then I had a plan. I decided to act as if I didn't realize they were criminals, but they were just friendly strangers, and we were foreigners. "Hey, how you doing? it's so nice here in Jamaica".. I did that in the hopes that they will relax and not think we'd flee off anytime soon. But then, one of them started to get very impatient, as if he wanted to kill us right there.. he held on to my arm, and I felt as if he wanted to snap me]..

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Wednesday, September 10th, 2008
1:43 am - Sleep paralysis & nocturnal seizures?

Hello, everyone.  I just joined tonight.  I was surprised (although I shouldn't be) that there is such a community for S. P..  It's a fantastic thing, though.  I have been researching S. P. because I also suffer from it.  They have never been delightful for me although they've been surely incredible experiences.  They are now infrequent (knock on wood), but I have been trying to find information regarding suffers of S. P. who have had an issue as I have.

When I have episodes of it they are usually out-of-body for a time being (other-wise they're almost always completely paralyzed and open-eyed), and so realistic that I actually do not know that I am dreaming.  There's always an ominous presence at the end, and I become terrified.  This is far from my actual personality to be afraid, so I find it alarming.  I have always had the ability to know that I was dreaming when I was, but not with this. . .

How-ever, that isn't the worst part. . .

Can anyone tell me if they have ever experienced this:  Either right at the beginning or end of an episode (or both), I will feel the common "heaviness", but it's more like I'm being sucked into something, and then it signifies for what I know is going to happen next:  I will start hearing a hum in my head and then feel as if my body is being put through some slow impulses of an electrocution machine.  It's like a slow electricity is vibrating down my entire body, but its worse with my head.  Can anyone relate?  Is this understandable?  I interpret this as being excruciatingly painful while it is happening.

In my early teens I had occasions of having nocturnal seizures, which is within itself a sleep paralysis that can cause the sufferer (in my experience) to wake-up in jolts and fall RIGHT back to sleep within seconds, and then having this repeat continuously only moments or seconds later (other things can happen during the seizure, but that's the main bit).  These are extremely rare now for me unless triggered by medications.  How-ever, I've been doing research, and I've seen that some suffers of N. S. have this sense of electro-happenings before falling asleep, but I'm having this combined within the episode of the S. P..
I also didn't start having S. P. problems until after the period of time I was having nocturnal seizures (in my late teens), so . . . I just wonder what's going on. . .

Is it possible that my nocturnal seizures evolved into sleep paralysis?  Are they commonly connected?  Does anyone experience pain at all while having an episode of S. P.?

I'd really love and appreciate feedback.

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Tuesday, September 9th, 2008
1:06 pm

One more question for the community:

This question is posed to the members that have out of body experiences with their sleep paralysis. I am just curious....hmmm, this question is hard to pose. Ok, so you're having an episode and you start to leave your body and say you're just roaming your apartment or house...How do you return to your body? For me, every time I leave my body it feels like there is a rubber band attached to me and my actual body. And for me, It is not a choice to return to my body. It is like I am zapped back in. Like I've reached the end of the rubber line and pulled back in like a bungee cord. Yeah, I guess a bungee cord is the best way to describe it. Does everyone have this feeling of being "zapped" back in or do some of you have a choice and just roam right back in?

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12:55 pm

I am writing this post out of pure curiosity. Writing in the community before I have talked about my previous sleep paralysis episodes: the auditory, visual hallucinations, out of body experiences, etc. Last night it was a different beast altogether. I actually dreamed that I was having a sleep paralysis episode. In the dream I dreamed that I was falling asleep and then I heard that all too familiar hum in my ears and then the pressure on my chest. Then I went slightly out-of-body by twisting myself out onto the floor. Then it was the struggle to get out of the episode until I finally broke free. Then I woke up. But not really, because it was a dream. I woke up in my dream. So this wasn't a sleep paralysis episode; rather a dream of one. Now I feel really screwed. If I'm not having a real true life episode then I'm dreaming that I'm having one. Is this common? Has anyone else had an episode in a dream?

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Tuesday, June 10th, 2008
8:09 am

I developed sleep paralysis after a had epilepys. I got hit by a car in middle school and shortly after started to have seizures. I was on medication for about 3 years for it to fully disappear. I don't have it very often but when I do, I know instantly what is happening. I heard a voice last night right before it happened that said "YEEEEES". It was eerie. I have heard voices before but not like this one. I had the really loud noice humming in my ear like I was in a wind tunnel. My body is frozen and I can't scream. I try to open my eyes, but the noise in my ear gets louder as if this presence doesn't want me to see what is happening around me. All I can do is lay helplessly in my bed for it to pass. I can have multiple episodes in a night and it all feels like a dark presence taking over my body. I've have these episodes for 18 years or so. Not once was I able to move, speak or scream my way out of it. When I was younger I had thought I was abducted my aliens just because I felt a presence of people standing around my bed and I could hear them talking, but couldn't make out the words. Then it felt like my body was flying around my room. Very strange and I wish I had some control over what is happening to me.

current mood: confused

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Friday, June 6th, 2008
4:34 pm

Luckily lately my sleep paralysis episodes have been few and far between but this morning it struck again.  I was drifting back to sleep at 6am when I heard that dreadful and unfortunately familiar whirl almost like a jet engine and my body started to fall out from under me.  I tried hard to open up my eyes finally getting them to open and I can see the pattern on my bedspread.  I struggled to get up putting my hands on the window sill above me trying to push up.  I could only get that far until I was pushed back down.  I was in some sort of black tunnel.  Then I saw the pattern of my bedspread again.  I was awake again.  I got up.  But unfortunately this was just an out of body experience and not reality.  My body was still laying on my bed as my soul roamed my apartment.  I got as far as the door but I was pulled back into my body and the pressure started to build again.  Three more attempts to get back to "myself."  I thought I was going to be stuck in this limbo forever.  Finally, I was truly awake but that Old Witch was tempting me back into oblivion.  It felt dangerously romantic to fall back out.  The bed started to rumble but that's as far as I would allow it.  Got up and took a shower.

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Saturday, May 17th, 2008
9:52 pm - alright, so i just had one.


it's been about a year since i've had a hypnagogic hallucination as clear and remarkable as the one i just had 6 minutes ago.

i became aware immediately and was somehow conscious that i was having an episode, mainly because i know what to look for.

the first tip-off was that i felt an insane amount of pressure on my chest and my stomach, borderline painful, but i didn't panic because i knew it was an episode. i decided to take advantage of my peculiar mental state and i explored a little bit. upon looking around i noticed that all the lights were on in my room even though i had turned them off to take a nap. i started to slide over the top of the bed, and my body fell down into the area on the ground next to my night stand and my bed. i could now hear a song, it was a rock song, somewhat like a foo-fighters song. it was really good, and i can remember some of the chords but none of the lyrics (which is a damn shame, because i know they were good, and i'm terrible at writing lyrics). i then became aware of a person in front of me. it was a girl, about my age, she looked to be chinese. no one i knew, no distinct features really; i remember having the strong urge to reach out and touch her face, but not being able to move. 

then my phone rang, which was in my hand (lol, can't believe i fell asleep like that..) and i was pulled out of it, but not fast enough to pick up the call. i was a little sluggish getting up, but not confused as i was fully aware of what was happening to me.

hoorah for sleep paralysis. it's not always bad. if you can accept that your body does this, then really accept it. take it as a free trip. if you can be conscious enough while it takes place, it's a very interesting place to explore and i recommend it.

for the record, i was supine.

current mood: lethargic

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Saturday, April 26th, 2008
3:13 am

hey there...it never occurred to me to find a community for this..but I'm a chronic experiencer/sufferer (would you call if suffering) of SP. I've had it since i was a little boy. My first dreams with paralysis were of me being in the middle of a baseball field with my head stuck in the pitcher's mound, kinda like an ostrich. it was weird..and then they went away until high school maybe, and it came back with a vengeance. it happens to me during all types of sleep - deep, light, catnaps...often multiple times. i've gotten past the fear of it...it's more of an annoyance now, yet also fascinating. I've never had an out of body episode yet, but I did hallucinate one time. I remember being totally lucid in my sleep, and seeing a giant shadow in the corner of my room, looking quite like the angel of death (my religious friend says i'm cursed =P). At that point though i had read enough of the facts to be aware that it was only a hallucination, unnerving as it was. has anyone ever had an episode when your eyes were fully open while being paralyzed? I think that was the worst for me...and no matter how many times I lucidly tell myself "don't panic, just relax, you know what it is" while it's happening..it is still a dreadful feeling.

glad to meet y'all =)

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